A long time ago
…I was reading something, so long ago that I don’t know what I was reading. It could have been a book, a poem, a blog… I seriously can’t remember now. What I do remember was that the feeling of time slipping by so fast did not seem as real back then. Don’t get me wrong – time have never ‘stood still’, it never does. The things that have changed since I have had my daughter are as follows.
1 – My heart grew ten sizes! Not really, of course, but my God. I never really knew how much I could love someone until I held her in my arms. Watching her Dad hold her for the first time was like seeing my heart sitting outside of my body. I am not so sure I will ever feel emotions that intense again. I’d give my last breath if it meant they could live healthily and happily.
2 – I got a huge wake-up call. My sister has four kids (the youngest just joined our family a few weeks ago! Congrats Sissy)! She is such an amazing mother and her husband is such an amazing dad, that they make things look so easy. I thought for sure I would be able to make it look at least half as effortless as they did, but I swear… I am failing. Perhaps it is just a mom thing to feel as if you are failing all the time, but man… my daughter is hard headed, soooooo stubborn, and so very smart. She loves to test her limits. I love watching her love, learn, and grow. It is just a lot harder than I ever thought possible. Now I laugh at my friends who do not have kids and think it is so easy. One day… one day you’ll see.
3 – Time speeds up! Maybe not literally, but it seems like you blink and things change. One second you are handed a little, grumpy bundle of joy and the next she’s crawling everywhere. Then you look away for one second and OMG SHE’S WALKING!!!! Or at least, that’s what happened to us. My oldest nephew and niece were the ones who go to see Baby Girls first steps. I had just walked into the kitchen to get a drink. It’s so amazing watching them figure stuff out.
4 – Nothing else really matters except family. I look back at the stuff that used to seem so important to me. Stupid trival things like going out with friends, getting my nails done, and really just anything that isn’t a necessity in life. Don’t get me wrong, it is still fun to do all those things, but I’d rather be able to go see my sisters anytime I wanted, or go sit on my Dad’s couch and talk to him about everything going on in the world that has me terrified to be raising a kid today.
This list could keep going, but I am going to cut it off here. I have some rather import things I need to be doing, like surveys for birthday party money and writing reviews for all the books I’ve read and have not got them posted just yet.
A Quick Update:
I am still selling stuff for Elk River as an affilate to get in some money to support to the blog. You can now find that link in the menu bar of the site. Please check it out. Spoil yourself with bath bombs, shower steamers, bath fizzes, and more! ALL FOR UNDER $10!
The following book reviews will be up soon:
- Ilsa by Madeleine L’Engle
- Big Little Lies by Liane Moriarty
- What Alice Forgot by Liane Moriarty
- The Kept Woman by Karin Slaughter
- Orphan Train by Christina Baker Kline
- Three Wishes by Liane Moriarty (I seriously CANNOT get enough of her writing).
I will also be adding a craft section to the site for some of the stuff I have as hobbies. In case you didn’t know, we are a crafting home. I crochet, I am attempting to learn to knit, I make jewelry, and I have some exciting new things to hopefully bring to the table soon so I can show you how to do stuff at home (like make cards that look professional, make birthday party decor, wooden signs, t-shirts, and more)!
Time never stands still, but I will be around and posting more often. I have some really exciting news coming up for all of my lovely followers.